renovation

so i've decided to bring a new flavor to the way i'll be blogging.
i'm going to try to photo blog and just, write.
this blog will be my place to: wonder, organize, question, release, ramble, admire, and so forth.

so for the past few weeks, i've been feeling pretty- useless. i feel like my days are filled with bunch of nothings. me waking up, eating, going to work, coming back home, eating, watching tv, sleep. i've been getting so lazy and undisciplined. this is bad news bears.

therefore, i have some goals for my spring/summer of 09:
-read books
-finishing the OT by the end of this summer
-wake up everyday by 9am (or around that time)
-exercise more
-meet up with someone new every other week
-get a heads up in studying for the DATs @ least 3 times a week

okay, i got this. holla.

Dear Jesus,

What an amazing and crazy year it has been. Sophomore year was a roller coaster of many twists and turns and many unexpected surprises. This year was one of my harder and dryer seasons of my life. I came in the fall excited to start the school year with new expectations and goals, yet those feelings were quickly stifled by one situation by another. I found myself getting bitter and darkened with feelings of loneliness. After struggling and going through many rounds of tug-of-war, I find myself here so satisfied in Your love once again. You never forsook the tears that I shed and the prayers I lifted up. Thank you for a beautiful, beautiful year. A year of brokenness and rebuilding. A year of learning to trust and obey. A year of getting to know who I am in Christ and who You are to me because of Christ.

How much more... real You are to me than You were just a year ago. Seeing how You've been so graciously faithful and loving, I can't come close in imagining what You have planned for me this coming year.

Love Your daughter,
Helen Kim

I am so out of shape

in so many ways. Today was my first day of YSTA and it was intensely brutal. My legs ended feeling like jello and useless piece of logs stuck to my body. Nonetheless, the struggle was worth every sweat, every muscle spasm, every ache of my body. It was fun watching other people do the exercise regime with me. I had other instances to laugh at my fellow members too. Today's leg and abs exercises were too funny. We did these frog-jumps and scissor-leg-lifts that were so funny looking. I think I got more of a workout laughing.

This spring has already been a whirlwind of many new things and I am, also, so out of shape in going about dealing or doing certain things.
-I've started my new position in the Grad Perio dental clinic as an assisant for surgery. I assisted for the first time today, and surprisingly I didn't pass out. My nervousness was quickly melted away by the fascinating techniques and procedures done on teeth implants. Absolutely fascinating.
-I'm living in a 2 bedroom apartment with 5 other girls. Yes, 6 girls in one apartment. Seems like we would have much drama, but it's absolutely chill. It's fun waking up to these 5 beautiful sisters who can have fun time and fart shamelessly. Ah yes, this is the uncut, raw and real life story of spring term living on 1010 Catherine St, Apt #401.
-I'm becoming more aware of God's realness more and more each and every day. I need to live an applicable life in Christ and learn to trust that God will make things happen. God needs to be orchestrating my life because it ain't mine to control.

Okay, my body's starting to ache a bit and I'm tired of writing. Goodnight!

To the ladies of my family- grandma, mom, ny aunt, & aloha aunt:

Happy Mother's Day to you all!

Thank you for being the strong women I know you all to be. Women who no matter what time of day would do anything for their husband and children, women who no matter how busy they are will drop anything to care for their family, women who would endure discomfort for the comfort of their families... You continue to inspire me to become the women of patience, love, wisdom, strength, and sacrifice. Each of you have played a significant role in shaping and molding the person I am today. I am continuously learning and in constant awe of the strength you display in your everyday living. I pray and hope for another wonderful and healthy year for you all. I only hope that I can grow to become at least half the woman as you all are. Thanks for being there, loving me, and putting up with my rants and complaints. I know I may not been the best granddaughter, daughter, and even niece, but you guys know I love you all from the bottom of my heart, right? Right. God bless you guys, peace and love everywhere!

I love and miss you,
Helen