friendship:
1. the emotions or conduct of friends; the states of being friends
-a state of mutual trust and support
Friendship is a very intriguing concept to understand. Two complete strangers from two different worlds coming together. Two complete and different worlds being joined by this tie that we call friendship. I've always cherished friendship and went about it with a "I got yo back" kind of mentality. But, through both solid and broken friendships, I am learning that this kind of mentality is not always reciprocated. I saw friendship intertwined with trust, support, and love. But, I guess not everyone feels that way. Either that, or is it that some people just don't care for friendship? I've been hurt and stabbed through broken friendships earlier in my life, but it didn't really bother me. I guess I just shrugged it off as us not knowing any better, we were too young, too naive, too foolish. I didn't really care or better yet, it didn't hurt me as much as it would now. But, as I re-evaluate the friendships I have now and all the friendships I've lost... I'm at such a bittersweet stance. Wouldn't/shoudln't people know better? Know more? Is it me who hasn't tried hard enough? Should I continue to put myself out there even though I just end up getting rejected? There's to a certain point, right? Or is there?
I guess all I can really do now is be thankful for the long-lasting, strong friendships I have now. Friendships that I am and will invest more into. Friendships I know that aren't superficial or based upon apathetic feelings. Friendships that are based upon trust and love and honesty. Friendships that are, for the lack of better words, keepin' it real. Legit.
I'm off to study for my exam now. This was a random blurb.
5 comments:
"keepin' it real"
i will keep that in my mind :)
Ohhh Helen how you say the words of my heart. You know, I thought, too, is it worth all this crap, this pain? Especially in middle school, when I went through something really big, I remember thinking, "Forget it" and I just always ran away.. ran away from the friend, from anywhere I might (yes, might) bump into my friend, avoiding anything that might make me face my friend again.... and during that time, I thought I had the 'right' to do it. After that, I think it was really hard for me to really invest in friendships, to be really vulnerable to them, to share with them who I am (fearing rejection and all). At the same time, yea, it's a risk. It's such a big risk. I find myself in that situation And yea, you know about my situation in college, too. I really hope that you can endure through it (I'm still enduring it too) if you're going through something right now... And I'm always here to talk you yo!!!! USE MEEE!!!! haha
I know we're not like the closest of friends, but I hope that can change too (espcially when we have like.. 7 years together.. hopefully)!!!! hahaha
love you girl <3
i got your back
Worst beginning ever, serious who starts a story with the definition of a word. Besides that, nice blog.
Jeffrey. How many times do I have to tell you. My criticisms for you are for you and you alone. It's oKay if everyone else does it. It's not oKay when you do it. Keep that in mind.
:P
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